what you love

dear reader,

i wish i could say that my lack of writing has simply been because of time constraints or inability. in reality, i haven’t been giving myself the time or space to do so. but now here i am, at the foot of my key board, ready to give it my best. i think that my writing brain has a hard time keeping with a schedule, especially a weekly one. but i do need to do a better job of writing more often because it is definitely something that feeds my soul.

i would like to write about the act of feeding ones soul. i think it is something each of us is forgetting to do. but we need it so badly, i promise. i feel oversaturated by social media lately. constantly being sold items and ideas and subscriptions and people and trends. i am tired. i think it’s easy for each of us to start to lose ourselves in these things. in trying to be the idea of something someone else wants us to be. in trying to look more like the people we see on our phones. we are straining our eyes looking at these bright screens, hurting our heads taking in so much information at once, and neglecting our souls to please others.

please remember your inner child, i beg of you. remember the little kid you were, the things you loved to do, the activities that made you feel alive. give yourself the time and grace to do those things. my favorite thing to do as a child was dancing. i would float all around the house, listening to music, or sometimes making my own.

today, what i seem to forget about, is dancing. at one point in my life i found it to be embarrassing, so i neglected it. but not doing something you love just because people might judge you is stupid. i love the little girl i was. she didn’t care what judgement anyone had to give her. she didn’t take anyones’ shit. i’m finding my way back to where i came from and who i’m becoming. as contradicting as it might seem, letting the two coincide has led me to more growth than ever before. so now, everyday i find at least one moment to dance, even if it’s while i make my coffee. it’s not something i do for anyone else but myself. i hope you do something that is only for you today.

i love love and giving love and being in love. but please try with all your might not to lose yourself in love. in order to not do that, i try to think of myself as my partner too, and care for myself like i also care for my partner. the grace and love we give to others should also be placed upon ourselves. yet, we have a tendency to be so cruel and harsh to our minds. why? you are the only person fully experiencing you, living in your body, your mind, your heart. care for that experience and that life. treat yourself like you would the love of your life.

they say we have room in our hearts for many loves, well, one of those loves should be our own self.

pieces of me will always remain, no matter how lost i get. i can always find my way back. this media age puts the safety of our soul at risk. try not to lose it.

i am in a place in my life where i have opened myself to loving, fully. loving myself, loving others, being loved. i think i only started to fully understand love from others when i found love within myself. because once i accepted myself, i was able to share myself comfortably and accept the love i truly deserve. it’s such a delicate thing, i don’t have it figured out, but i don’t think anyone does. to love our own selves, as ever-changing beings is hard. but to love another ever-changing soul is as well. the hope is that your growth intertwines and swirls and compliments one another.

i like to think that all that we surround ourselves with makes for the growth of who we are. i think that’s why i like to display images and objects and things all over the walls of my room. so it’s all out there for me to see. i cannot contain my love. i must create with it. i must love to live.

so, i cannot promise a consistent posting schedule, but i’ll give as much as i can when i can. because i love sharing my thoughts with y’all.

thank you,

carly