to love is a gift
dear reader,
the past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind of beautiful memories, connections and art. i have such a deep love for the people in my life. my birthday was made to be so very special because of their company. it is the best birthday i have celebrated so far and i feel so lucky to have had such wonderful people to celebrate with.
sweet lexi and i at my birthday
i have been thinking a lot about love recently and the many forms it takes in my life. it is such a strong force that i can’t seem to fully grasp. it can scary it can make you want to hide or run away or neglect it. but then i find myself in a space with all of these people around me who i have attached onto throughout the years and have decided to gather to see me. friendships with people that range from 10 years to 3 months. all of them are so important to me and i couldn’t have been happier to share a space with them. now that i think about it, i don’t know if i have ever had friendships like these in my life. people that challenge me and comfort me and understand me. i am so happy to know them now, even if it might not be forever.
me at 1 year, that smile is priceless!!!!
i don’t want to be afraid of love, from myself or from others. but there is that feeling i get when i feel my own vulnerability is in someone’s hands, it’s like when you look down from a tall building and you feel yourself falling down even though you remain where you were. i like to lie to myself and think i could not fall, i wouldn’t even look down or out the window to risk it. but then i would miss all that is beautiful. i can’t lock myself away to avoid the risk of falling down.
don’t let yourself miss out.
lovely photo i got of sarah at the beach
there is a lot i am looking forward to creating. and one of those things is love. i hope to carry it with me into my friendships and my art and my everyday life. because it is a gift. and i will not take it for granted
thank you for reading! i’ve had a busy few weeks and haven’t had much time to sit and think. just know the creating and learning and loving never stops!
thank you <3
